I was flipping through a friend's photo album when I came across pictures of some girls looking so stylish and grown up. They were your typical 'Versace' and 'Vera Wang' billboard ladies; tall, thin, primped haired smiling girls complete with stillettos and baguettes. Looking at these girls I suddenly felt a little insecure about myself, so i bugged Idd on MSN and asked what she thought....
y a z m i n: u still up ke?
n a d i a h : yes
n a d i a h : why?
y a z m i n: no was wondering
y a z m i n: i oso cos i got exam tomorrow
y a z m i n: huhuhu
n a d i a h : same la, aku ade hw and paper due tomorrow
n a d i a h : bwahahahaha
y a z m i n: hehe ok
y a z m i n: ok wait one question then i leave u alone
y a z m i n: is it better to be stylish, or conservative but ok looking
n a d i a h : dude, soalan yg tak patut tanye
n a d i a h : sungguh abstract
n a d i a h : it can be either one, depends on the person la
y a z m i n: ok
y a z m i n: was wondering cos browsing thru my friend's photo album, i came across a girl i don't know
y a z m i n: but only our age and she's sporting ferragamo's and manolo blahniks and all
y a z m i n: and i realized many people our age are like that
y a z m i n: i kinda feel like a kid trapped in a 23 yr olds body
n a d i a h : wow
y a z m i n: tu aa
y a z m i n: aku cam gelabah pon ada gak
y a z m i n: i feel like i havent grown up!
y a z m i n: i know its trivial
y a z m i n: but it just got me thinking
y a z m i n: is it me that hasnt grown up, or are they the ones trying to be too grown up, too fast
n a d i a h : i have friends like that
n a d i a h : aku selalu rase selekeh
n a d i a h : tp dr kau pakai bende yg kau tak comfortable in
n a d i a h : baik takyah
y a z m i n: dude how can u not be confortable wearing designer clothes
y a z m i n: hahahhaa
n a d i a h : bukan dr segi how it feels on your skin
n a d i a h : dr segi how you feel you look
n a d i a h : paham ak?
y a z m i n: paham dah
y a z m i n: still, the 'woman' in u cant help but feel the want to be like that
n a d i a h : mmg pon
n a d i a h : tak salah kalau kau nak try
n a d i a h : you don't know how you would feel until you try it
n a d i a h : you might like it
y a z m i n: doubtful...
n a d i a h : but at the same time don't feel bad that you're not wearing dresses and heels
y a z m i n: actually this conversation just made me feel better again living in my jeans
y a z m i n: haha
y a z m i n: ok iddy, question answered
y a z m i n: i go read my 8 chapters now!
Yes, it might sound like a silly thing to brood over. But there are times when you can't help but feel envious of those who define the words classy and stylish. Then again, like Idd said, you're more than welcome to be like them too if you want. But if you don't, don't feel bad that you're not wearing dresses and heels.
And just to keep you guys from wondering, yes, i still do dress in jeans, tshirts and sneakers :)
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
UPLOADING UPGRADES...
I purchased a 120GB hard drive last semester, and only got around to buying an external enclosure last month. It finally arrived last Thursday and I unwrapped my new AMS Venus enclosure (80mm cooling fan included, hell yeah!) like a kid unwrapping a Christmas present. After I had finished formatting and transferring all my music and movie files into my new hard drive, I sat back in my seat, listening to the content purr of the 120GB Seagate.
On Friday I left for DC to meet up with friends preparing for a mock interview by Petronas. Weeks before, Paddy messaged me asking for resume samples she could look at. Soon all Petronas scholars were busy updating their resumes and filling in job application forms. The sudden change in interest (as opposed to normal gibberish we talk about concerning MTV and VH1) was quite an eye-opener. And quite frankly, also quite frightening. In less than 4 months, we'll finally be stepping into the unknown realm of 'careerhood'.
Yay?
While it's exciting to entertain the thought of no classes, exams, papers or class discussions on a book you haven't read, it's equally distressing to think of 6am traffic, monthly bills, merciless employers and nonexistent midsem breaks. The leap from grade school to high school was a little disorienting, and the leap from high school to college, exhilarating. But college to work? The transition will be so drastic that a catapultic hurl won't promise a sound landing onto the career crash pad (if there are any, that is).
It's times like these you begin to retrace your academic experiences and start looking for the 'Maturity Manual' or the 'Guide To Excelling Before You Turn 20'. And when all you find are 2 copies of 'Green Eggs and Ham' and stacks of magazines discussing 75 shades of lip color, you realize that 11 years in the educational field does not quite prepare you for the real world.
And yet with 91 days left til I leave this comfort zone, I still don't see my copy of the 'Congratulations You're Now Ready To Conquer The Working World' certificate at my doorstep.
Sometimes I wonder if our expectations are too high and that we plough through years of school expecting to be supplied with all the answers. Maybe some things you'll just need to wait for and plunge into with eyes blindfolded.
Facing uncertainty right in the eye with no definitive checklist or instructional Cliff Notes, I can, at the very least, be assured that my machines are constantly upgraded with automatic installations.
On Friday I left for DC to meet up with friends preparing for a mock interview by Petronas. Weeks before, Paddy messaged me asking for resume samples she could look at. Soon all Petronas scholars were busy updating their resumes and filling in job application forms. The sudden change in interest (as opposed to normal gibberish we talk about concerning MTV and VH1) was quite an eye-opener. And quite frankly, also quite frightening. In less than 4 months, we'll finally be stepping into the unknown realm of 'careerhood'.
Yay?
While it's exciting to entertain the thought of no classes, exams, papers or class discussions on a book you haven't read, it's equally distressing to think of 6am traffic, monthly bills, merciless employers and nonexistent midsem breaks. The leap from grade school to high school was a little disorienting, and the leap from high school to college, exhilarating. But college to work? The transition will be so drastic that a catapultic hurl won't promise a sound landing onto the career crash pad (if there are any, that is).
It's times like these you begin to retrace your academic experiences and start looking for the 'Maturity Manual' or the 'Guide To Excelling Before You Turn 20'. And when all you find are 2 copies of 'Green Eggs and Ham' and stacks of magazines discussing 75 shades of lip color, you realize that 11 years in the educational field does not quite prepare you for the real world.
And yet with 91 days left til I leave this comfort zone, I still don't see my copy of the 'Congratulations You're Now Ready To Conquer The Working World' certificate at my doorstep.
Sometimes I wonder if our expectations are too high and that we plough through years of school expecting to be supplied with all the answers. Maybe some things you'll just need to wait for and plunge into with eyes blindfolded.
Facing uncertainty right in the eye with no definitive checklist or instructional Cliff Notes, I can, at the very least, be assured that my machines are constantly upgraded with automatic installations.